yeah, I want babies more than a husband :)

I just have one thing to say today. "I love Jesus like a freak!" phew! now that's off my chest. I am so loving every moment I have with my Savior. He is so beautiful! Today this thought occurred to me, "how do people live without Him?" I know I feel I won't be able to breathe without Him. This God is no joke, theory, or idea. He is living and powerful. This is who I love and serve. I guess I just want to make that point, service. No not in the sense of providing excellent customer service, or community service hours to make a college app look better. No I am talking about a desire deep rooted and full of so much love that you will do anything possible to show that passionate love.


Before the conference where I met my God, I was worried about my old age and not getting married (I know, 23 years old is old enough to kick the bucket!). anyways. Back to my aging. I was worried God would take too long. I even said the good little single christian girl answer to that, "it's all in God's time. I can wait for just the right guy." deep down inside I was trying to speed God up, because you know He only created the universe so He totally needs my advice on dating. I wasn't satisfied. I wasn't filled. I wanted more, but I had no idea I wanted more of the wrong thing. Now, don't twist my words or misunderstand. Marriage isn't work, hey I still want to get married, but I was telling God He wasn't enough. I was telling Christ His love and sacrifice wasn't enough and I just needed more of a sinful world. Can you hear my idiotic ignorance? haha, I do. Anyways. Back to ignorance. I was following God's rules but not dwelling and abiding in Him. 


Then, dun dun dun... THE CONFERENCE! I fell in love with Him in a new way. He is enough for me. He is all I need. I truly want Him and only Him (don't get me wrong I still want to have some babies). It's just that, God is more than enough when you really allow Him to become part of you. When you open yourself to God. When you open up and let Him be God. When you really let Christ be the one who lived for you. Seriously, Christ lived for me. That is why He came to Earth. His purpose for living was to win my heart. How could He not be enough?